2009-04-26
2009-04-02
A Little Tired
Here, I can't help admit my tiredness... I know that it would be positive if I could say that I did not care anything about. I know why. I always sit up late at night. I do not like to get asleep.
Recently, my Sundays and Saturdays are filled by going to the cramschool(Tatsumi). I usually take two classes a day, one of which takes about 3 hours and a half. Also sometimes I need to take some English exams or mock exams.
I'm busy with those works, but I know at the same time that is good for me. If I have free time, I might think useless trifles.
Last weekends, I didn't go to the cramschool at all because I had to complete to prepare my reports for my job. This report was supposed to be submitted in May, so I didn't prepare so well. At first, I was upset about that for a while.
The work, however, was not so huge or troublesome. If I can put together pieces of my little knowledge, a report seemed to be finished, and actually that was. On Sunday, I slept almost all day because I suffered from hangover because of cacktails on Friday. And on Saturday I could go to the gym for my favorite Yoga class. I felt that my body recovered at all.
And today, I am feeling tired again. Last night I went to bed at 3 am. I know I need, no, must get good deep sleep, but I can't although I don't know why. But anyway I am now tired, so I hope I can sleep tonight...
Recently, my Sundays and Saturdays are filled by going to the cramschool(Tatsumi). I usually take two classes a day, one of which takes about 3 hours and a half. Also sometimes I need to take some English exams or mock exams.
I'm busy with those works, but I know at the same time that is good for me. If I have free time, I might think useless trifles.
Last weekends, I didn't go to the cramschool at all because I had to complete to prepare my reports for my job. This report was supposed to be submitted in May, so I didn't prepare so well. At first, I was upset about that for a while.
The work, however, was not so huge or troublesome. If I can put together pieces of my little knowledge, a report seemed to be finished, and actually that was. On Sunday, I slept almost all day because I suffered from hangover because of cacktails on Friday. And on Saturday I could go to the gym for my favorite Yoga class. I felt that my body recovered at all.
And today, I am feeling tired again. Last night I went to bed at 3 am. I know I need, no, must get good deep sleep, but I can't although I don't know why. But anyway I am now tired, so I hope I can sleep tonight...
2009-03-15
Doblog 2...
At this time, I really should give up Doblog... Doblog seems to be totally abandoned without repairs...
It is easy to change my blog into Blogger. But one thing I was worried about is that I cannot leave the message about my moving because I can't post any articles on doblog... So I really hope that Doblog will recover the service of posting as soon as possible. One posting is ok for me now...
Let me change the story. Today I went to take the Toefl exam. Actually I can say that I have got used to this test. I, however, do not get used to speaking section.
Today's speaking exam was really hard for me. At the first question, I wanted to have many coughs, and as a result I couldn't answer with any satisfaction. Also at the following question, I couldn't come up with good expressions and felt suffered.
I have little idea on how I can speak what I want to say more frequently. I can express what I want through writing like this blog, but not through speaking. Maybe this owes that I rarely speak English in recent situations, and I need to go to anywhere I can speak English such as some kind of school or so.
I felt overwhelmed by today's speaking test and lost my confidence, which is originally really little...
I actually feel dumped because I can't stop my idea that I can do nothing even if I try various things. Recently, I can't stop feeling that I am the bad person who has no ability.
Kept suffering from such ideas, I barely found a stream of light that today's experience make me remember that I need to try again. And I believe that keeping efforts should make me better than doing nothing. I have no alternatives but do keep my efforts. And keeping efforts definitely will support mentally.
As my last goal, I hope that I can enjoy my efforts. I know that for this goal I need to recover my mental state for the time of being. But, anyhow, it is a kind of ideal if I can enjoy a process toward my dream. And anyway now, I'm keeping telling myself that happiness will come by itself if I keep doing what I decide on I should do. And keeping efforts make me forget a lot of hardships in everyday life, and will save me eventually.
It is easy to change my blog into Blogger. But one thing I was worried about is that I cannot leave the message about my moving because I can't post any articles on doblog... So I really hope that Doblog will recover the service of posting as soon as possible. One posting is ok for me now...
Let me change the story. Today I went to take the Toefl exam. Actually I can say that I have got used to this test. I, however, do not get used to speaking section.
Today's speaking exam was really hard for me. At the first question, I wanted to have many coughs, and as a result I couldn't answer with any satisfaction. Also at the following question, I couldn't come up with good expressions and felt suffered.
I have little idea on how I can speak what I want to say more frequently. I can express what I want through writing like this blog, but not through speaking. Maybe this owes that I rarely speak English in recent situations, and I need to go to anywhere I can speak English such as some kind of school or so.
I felt overwhelmed by today's speaking test and lost my confidence, which is originally really little...
I actually feel dumped because I can't stop my idea that I can do nothing even if I try various things. Recently, I can't stop feeling that I am the bad person who has no ability.
Kept suffering from such ideas, I barely found a stream of light that today's experience make me remember that I need to try again. And I believe that keeping efforts should make me better than doing nothing. I have no alternatives but do keep my efforts. And keeping efforts definitely will support mentally.
As my last goal, I hope that I can enjoy my efforts. I know that for this goal I need to recover my mental state for the time of being. But, anyhow, it is a kind of ideal if I can enjoy a process toward my dream. And anyway now, I'm keeping telling myself that happiness will come by itself if I keep doing what I decide on I should do. And keeping efforts make me forget a lot of hardships in everyday life, and will save me eventually.
2009-03-09
Doblog...
Doblog keeps out-of-service for several weeks, which is enough long to make me change the blog ("yuina") into the other service...
And I guess that also NTTData (the administrator) is now thinking the same thing. The company has just started to offer the exporting tool for users to move out.
Doblog is my first blog. And I've been feeling something warm to Doblog. Even if Doblog stopped its service many times, I kept using it and stuck to it...
Anyway, it may be a time that I should change my main blog...into Blogger. Blogger offers the import tool, which is just like a saviour for not only me but Doblog.
In moving the blog, I am now considering how well the characteristics of each my three blogs (yuina / That's the way of my life / to be a lawyer) should be positioned.
It'll be good that "To be a lawyer" should be a diary for my goal to be a lawyer in both US & Japan. Then, this blog "That's the way of my life" will be my English blog, which I can write anything freely in English. The main purpose of this blog is improvement of my writing skills. At the last, "yuina" will keep my main blog in Japanese. So yuina keeps more general than other two blogs.
http://lawyer-buswell.blogspot.com/
And I guess that also NTTData (the administrator) is now thinking the same thing. The company has just started to offer the exporting tool for users to move out.
Doblog is my first blog. And I've been feeling something warm to Doblog. Even if Doblog stopped its service many times, I kept using it and stuck to it...
Anyway, it may be a time that I should change my main blog...into Blogger. Blogger offers the import tool, which is just like a saviour for not only me but Doblog.
In moving the blog, I am now considering how well the characteristics of each my three blogs (yuina / That's the way of my life / to be a lawyer) should be positioned.
It'll be good that "To be a lawyer" should be a diary for my goal to be a lawyer in both US & Japan. Then, this blog "That's the way of my life" will be my English blog, which I can write anything freely in English. The main purpose of this blog is improvement of my writing skills. At the last, "yuina" will keep my main blog in Japanese. So yuina keeps more general than other two blogs.
http://lawyer-buswell.blogspot.com/
2009-03-06
hay fever
Also I am suffering from hay fever... Maybe it will keep annoying me until the beginning of this summer. This allergy makes me feel so bad by itchy nose and uncountable sneezes.
A day before yesterday, I watched several stories of the American TV series "Pepper Denis," called by "Koi-suru Anchor Woman" in Japanese. This drama is about the female reporter of TV news of the station in Chicago. She dreams to be an anchor woman of WEiE News, has many experiences through the job of a reporter, and have a secret crush on the co-worker.
I've watched the drama with English caption. And I felt again that I have so many words or expessions naturally used in common situations I don't know. It is right that if I do not know such expressions, at the same time I would not be able to listen to them correctly. This kind of natural expressions are still so many...
A day before yesterday, I watched several stories of the American TV series "Pepper Denis," called by "Koi-suru Anchor Woman" in Japanese. This drama is about the female reporter of TV news of the station in Chicago. She dreams to be an anchor woman of WEiE News, has many experiences through the job of a reporter, and have a secret crush on the co-worker.
I've watched the drama with English caption. And I felt again that I have so many words or expessions naturally used in common situations I don't know. It is right that if I do not know such expressions, at the same time I would not be able to listen to them correctly. This kind of natural expressions are still so many...
2009-02-26
Movie "SATC"
Two days ago, I watched the movie of "Sex and the City (SATC)." Maybe this movie divides two type of people who like SATC and who do not. I'm the former. Since I watched it at the first time, I've been a huge fan of the drama.
Why do I like it? Because I didn't know the kind of other drama like SATC, which features what women in 30s or more are feeling and thinking. I could easily be grossed in the feelings of Carrie, Miranda, Charotte, and maybe Samantha (laugh.. but I like Samanatha's presonality best among them).
Watching the one scene, I could feel some reality for women at the generation. That scene was that at the wedding Carrie smashed her bouquet at Mr. Big who could not enter the site of the ceremony. Until their engagement, she was betrayed by him repeatedly, but despite such events, she thought second and kept her love. Her love, however, was betrayed again at the most important time for women. I felt really sorry with her. Women want to believe a man, but always betrayed...
In the movie, I could find some worthy and impressive words. One is, Miranda said to Steve, "you criticize me?" That's the word I also want to say (laugh).
Also, I was impressed by the word "Miranda never looked back..." This mean, after decision to reconcile with Steve, Miranda decided not to see her backwards. I like this kind of words. I also want not to look back my bad memories, instead to see only futures or new possibilities.
This movie is really good! I would like recommend men and women in thirties, forties, and also more than that who wants to know what is love. We are always the existance who have some complications, but for us it is very important to keep following my own happiness...
Why do I like it? Because I didn't know the kind of other drama like SATC, which features what women in 30s or more are feeling and thinking. I could easily be grossed in the feelings of Carrie, Miranda, Charotte, and maybe Samantha (laugh.. but I like Samanatha's presonality best among them).
Watching the one scene, I could feel some reality for women at the generation. That scene was that at the wedding Carrie smashed her bouquet at Mr. Big who could not enter the site of the ceremony. Until their engagement, she was betrayed by him repeatedly, but despite such events, she thought second and kept her love. Her love, however, was betrayed again at the most important time for women. I felt really sorry with her. Women want to believe a man, but always betrayed...
In the movie, I could find some worthy and impressive words. One is, Miranda said to Steve, "you criticize me?" That's the word I also want to say (laugh).
Also, I was impressed by the word "Miranda never looked back..." This mean, after decision to reconcile with Steve, Miranda decided not to see her backwards. I like this kind of words. I also want not to look back my bad memories, instead to see only futures or new possibilities.
This movie is really good! I would like recommend men and women in thirties, forties, and also more than that who wants to know what is love. We are always the existance who have some complications, but for us it is very important to keep following my own happiness...
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